Devia curls up on the couch in front of the fireplace in her bedroom, her hands curled around a mug of hot Chava. Her hair is still damp from the shower, her robe wrapped around her body in a warming embrace. She reaches over to the end table and punches a few buttons on the recording device and starts to speak.
... I am Grey. I stand between the candle and the star...
"My training in the path of the Grey continues, under Noel's tutelage. Life has never been clearer to me before in my life. I am still learning from him about the true nature of the Force, not the false constructs of "Light" and "Dark" that the narrow viewed dogma Jedi and Sith forced upon it."
She plumps a pillow and leans back against it, basking in the warmth of the firelight.
"I have always maintained that there is no good without evil. There is no light without dark. There is no up without down. Yin and Yang. All in life is a balance. I'm happy to see finally that I was right."
... We are Grey. We stand between the darkness and the light...
"When one door closes, another opens. It's funny, the Jedi would consider me a Master by their standards, yet I am still learning the truth, not their narrow viewpoint of it. Noel tells me over and over that I am his superior with the saber... yet when he came over tonight, I showed him the new move I came up with out of desparation when I misjudged the strength of the pride of Xandaks that I was hired to clear out.. He ended up cleaning my clock. He doesn't take near enough credit for his skill with the blade. That move may come in handy some day, and I will do what it takes to protect those I love."
Devia laughs out loud around her mug of Chava.
"He'd be the first to laugh and tease me that I sound just like him, and I can't think of any higher compliment he could pay me. I asked him once if he thought I was a Seer, but he doesn't think so. My skillset is different. It makes me wonder, has there evern been a Jedi or Sith with the power of Empathy? I have to say, I have yet to find my limits now with the full power of the Force to enhance it."
"I think I've stated in my musings once before that when I focus inward, then expand outward, I can feel life around me. The flora and the fauna. I once heard Z talking to someone in the Cantina in Reilig Steppes about the trees on Dathomir, and it intrigued me. I've been out there since, and I have to say it was a most incredible experience. The trees on Dathomir are almost sentient. I spent the better part of a day in meditation in a quiet grove, communing with a different form of intelligence. I wonder... I wonder if some day, she and I might see eye to eye enough to talk about my experience there. Life needs balance, balance in the earth beneath our feet... so to Center... and so to ground."
Devia looks out the window of her house, taking in the beautiful sunshine of the crisp autumn day on Dantooine.
"I wonder what the trees on Dantooine would say to me if I tried to talk to them... I think I'm going to make a day of it as I have nothing to do except enjoy the beauty of the day that nature has given me... maybe make a camp. I know just the place."
Back to being a student, even after being judged a Master.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
posted by Devia at 8:28 PM
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