Devia fishes 2 glasses out of the food container she brought with her, and finds the bottle she had promised to have ready, setting them out on the table of the camp. "I wonder why he wants or needs to see me so badly" she says out loud to herself as she sets the items down and covers them to prevent dirt or bugs from settling on the surfaces.
Shrugging slightly, she goes back to her chair and lets the warmth from the Dantooine primary soak into her skin again, relaxing her and soothing some recent muscle aches and injuries from her training. She lets her mind drift back to the urgency and regret in his mind voice. To her surprise, she felt the muscle tension across his shoulders even when they were a light year away from each other. "How can I feel that from him?" she thinks to herself. "It's almost like we have a bond between us." her face scrunches a bit in concentration/confusion. "No... that can't be it.. we haven't made a point to forge that bond.." she lets the thought trail off as she feels something suddenly block the sun's rays from touching her skin. A quick mindtouch prevents her from lunging for her weapon... it's Noel.
"Hello there, Noel." She says with a smile without opening her eyes. "Drinks are on the table. Go grab them and them come sit down with me in the sun?" Devia feels a slight pressure from Noel's mind against hers... as if he was searching for something in her mind, like a mental nudge to make sure she was okay. She can feel him smile slightly, even though his whole mind tone was one of worry and regret. Sounds of the stopper being pulled out, the sloshing sounds of liberal amounts of liquid pouring into the glasses, and then the stopper being pushed back in.
"You look like you're enjoying yourself there, Dev." Noel says as he hands her a glass. Devia pats the chair next to her and says, "Have a seat.. you look like you really need to talk." She gives him a soft smile. "What's bothering you, Noel?"
"As I told you earlier... I'm a Monster. I just wanted to make sure you knew it." Noel started quietly, staring at his glass. "I'm not sorry I did what I did, I had to, the permutations they represented and all the lives they would have destroyed." His voice betrayed his true feelings somewhat, but he continues, "I know I'll keep seeing their faces in my dreams, and I will be living with the consequence... it's part of paying the price.. part of keeping the balance."
Devia smiles gently at him and shakes her head. "As I said before you got here, Noel.. you are no more a monster than I am." she takes his hand and squeezes softly. "We know that there's a cost, we understand the balance. We don't do things just to do them.. We allow others to choose, and we live by a Code. Not one that many would understand, but a Code nonetheless."
Noel nods slowly, letting her words sink in, and his face and posture relaxes a bit. Devia sees it and smiles, then continues on, "Maybe that's why we don't let ourselves
find true happiness and peace." She finds herself staring at him, becomes accutely aware of his Presence in her mind, close in proximity, clouding her mind, she could even feel their hearts start to beat in the same rythym. Her shields were up, but he managed to get through them, they were in total synch with each other, and the realization of that fact stunned her.
She thought to herself, in what she thought was the private area of her mind. "I just want to be with you Noel.. I... love you. I always have.. I want to give a part of my life to you... but I don't know how you would feel about that." His head suddenly raised up, and he was searching her face for something. "Wow, did he hear me?" Devia thought to herself nervously.
They talked about his life, about her life, things that happened, things they wanted. It was another good talk, and it was apparent to both that they were walking the same path. She found herself saying, "I wish you would let me help you. Help you with your fights, with your teaching... with anything you need.."
Noel smiled gently, and then said, "If what we're talking about is what we're talking about... you should know I have prior vows which I can't break... I have godchildren, a family, the only one I've ever known... how fair would it be trying to build a life together when I might have to go die for them?" Devia could feel the anguish in his heart, it was breaking as he was asking the question. She was stunned once again.. He loved her!! It was as obvious as the expression on his face, he loved her!
Tears started to roll down Devia's tattooed cheek as she gazed at the man in front of her. "Noel.." She whispered. "I love you. I've always loved you, I just wasn't ready to accept it before." Her tears are flowing freely now, "I will love anything you love, help you protect anything important to you. Just let me stand by your side as a partner and be your love."
He just sat there, expressionless for a few moments, blinking in stunned amazement. Then emotion started to play across his features as he started rummaging through his pack, bring out his sabacc pouch. Devia could hear the sound of something clinking together, which was odd, the sound was metallic, not what you would expect to hear. He reached inside and pulled something out, but she could not see what it was, it was hidden in his grasp.
He set his glass down, and got up off his chair and walked in front of her..
Then he kneeled down in front of her.. "No... he doesn't mean that?" Devia thought to herself.
He asked her to marry him... right then and there... and there was only one thought in Devia's mind. Only one word formed... but it was the only one that mattered.
... "Yes." ...
Confessions on a Sunny Day, Part 2
Friday, February 24, 2006
posted by Devia at 1:53 PM
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