Staring at a point on the wall, Devia blinks a bit, coming out of her reverie..
"I should never have tried to go it alone, I should have listened to Derek and Kisal.."
More memories flood back:
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Punching the controls on her navi-computer in her fighter, Koutai, Devia races her way twords the starport at Keren, Naboo. Relaxing during the flight, she remembers the recent events in her life that brought her to where she was.
*You cannot live for long in that ice fortress you have set up around yourself.* An old familiar deep voice echos in her mind.
*Haven't you heard? Don't you know what's happened?*, Devia mindsends back.
*I have. And I have grieved. Which is what you must let yourself do.* says the voice.
*I might as well have killed her myself. I wasn't here to protect her!* she cries mentally.
*That's foolish thinking. Do you remember nothing I tried to teach you? Analize the situation...Where is the profit? Where is the loss?* the mental voice scolds her.
*It's all my fault... it's all my fault...* Devia sends back... a quiet litany of self blame and loathing.
*Apparently I didn't know you as well as I thought...* The voice trails off..
Stunned, Devia sat there, not believing the words she just heard.... She never thought she would hear him say that to her... never in a million years. She tries to reach out to the voice... shaky, out of practice... looking for support, comfort.
She finds it from him, freely given, without hesitation. The sudden rush of comfort... caring.. the ice she surrounded her heart with starts to melt. She starts to cry, finally allowing herself to grieve. The support is not withdrawn. *That's it... let it all out... release it.. you are not alone*
Another scene forms in her mind.. Talking with Kisal by the new banking stucture in Rellig Steppes..
"I'd really like a chance to skin them alive as well" says Kisal strongly, surprising Devia.
"I can't let anyone else get hurt because of me, Kisal."
Walking away quietly...
.... a soft beeping from the ships navigation brings her back to the present ....
"Requesting permission to land in Keren, Naboo", Devia says to the neutral station.
"Permission granted, enjoy your stay in Keren, Devia." Says the station operator.
Smiling cooly, a small grin crosses her lips, Devia thinks to herself, "Oh, I'll enjoy my stay in Keren alright. I'll bet certain others won't be enjoying my visit nearly as much."
She slips into her armor.. feels for her VK blade... checks her datapad for the coordinates of the stronghold... of the ones who took her life long friend from her..
Devia supresses a quick pang of fear of facing these people alone... she reminds herself that she couldn't handle anyone else getting hurt because of her...
"oh, they'll pay..."
She mounts Behemoth, and rides off into the night..
Setting up a new house in New Libertas, Naboo - Part 2
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
posted by Devia at 10:21 AM
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